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So I'm 30 now.......... 30 years on this journey and other than wrinkles, an expanding butt and the odd silver streak in my hair, what do I have to show for it? Well as always there are my kids, now 6, 11 and 17, a true testament to how the path you choose can alter your life massively, to any young people out there thinking of popping sprogs young, I'm not going to dissuade you - but be aware that only now am I able to pursue the life I planned - to run a business, start buying my own house, get a decent car.... I don't care, I've loved every minute of being a dad (except the "at-the-hospital-frantically-worried-about-your-child" bits) and if sacrificing was what it took to stay a dad then... hell take my arms and legs too!

But still, 30 and in rented accomodation, driving a skip with an engine, no time for hobbies...... because I'm self-employed... But thats what else I have! My business, from nothing comes nothing they say, well they're right, but if you add hard work, dedication, and determination to nothing, you don't have nothing anymore... still struggling, still working every hour god sends, but.... I'm still there!

Just....

Life's journey is full of surprises, sometimes you round a corner only to find yourself face to face with a million choices and no-one to share the decision making with, others you have no choices and the unknown writer and tourguide that is Fate drives your destiny and progress like demon hike co-ordinator, pushing you through extremes in order to get the most 'experience' out of you.

Sometimes a person will join you on your trek who means the world to you, and other times you'll be pestered by gnome-like critters that torment and torture you until you finally give up and run screaming along another path m- or backwards

Life's journey is full of surprises.

Recently I was surprised to find out that no matter how much I worked, my footsteps were taking me nowhere. I was walking in the tightest circles imaginable, the only changes to be seen were the seasonal changes in weather, and the patterns of stars in the deep skies. For someone who has walked the journey of fools many times in his life, this was a novel change - maybe I could become comfortable with the 'way things are' rather than being hell bent on desperately seeking a new experience, a new me.

Alas this is never to be - you know me, the strange driving force moved me on, unfortunately without giving me time to tell everyone where I was going, for a time I was lost and alone, panicking and lonely, but still driving on. Still chasing an unknown goal and running from a too well known past.

And in my dash, I met more people, some I supported, some supported me.... Some I coaxed, and some inspired me... Nevertheless, the journey continued...

Three people in particular have carried me more than anyone else since my last posting, three people whom I thank fate for guiding into my path, to whom I owe a lot - because their belief in me helped me to believe in myself, and their trust in me has certainly pushed me back onto my own path... and with a smile - whether they knew it or not.

So to the pirate, the tiny-princess and the ever dedicated Varisssa - thank you, I hope you don't mind walking a little slower with me at the moment!!

As always hugs to the huggables, and hi5's to the rest of ya... I forgot my warm comfy shoe's for a while, but I've got a new pair now - lets walk people!!!!